Heartbroken. Devastated. Ready to Mobilize: 12 Hillary Voters on Trump

“I’m devastated that women, it turns out, can’t ever be good enough”

Alanna Evans
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Optimistic, hopeful and empowered: Yesterday, statements from voters across the U.S. who had cast a ballot for the first woman president seemed to symbolize more than just a vote for Hillary Clinton. Each vote felt like an acknowledgement of something bigger: a vote for Hill was a vote for all the mothers, daughters, sisters, mentors and best friends we know and love.

Today the tone is obviously different, but all hope is not lost. FLARE caught up with many of those same voters we reached out to yesterday and asked them to share their initial thoughts about Trump’s shocking victory and their plans moving forward. Here’s what they told us:

“I’m scared, for myself and for the future of this country. I’m thankful I don’t have children to explain this to. I’m devastated that women, it turns out, can’t ever be good enough.” —Alana, Colorado 

“What a tough few hours. I’m trying to remind myself that these results mean that so many people are unhappy and angry. It’s important to listen to that. I respect the process, but I am devastated with the result. I can’t help but take this personally. Maybe I’ve got it all wrong, but I truly feel like here is a person who hates me, telling other people it’s okay to hate me. To hate my parents. My uncles, aunts, and cousins. We’re planning a family reunion next year. I know no one will want to come to the U.S. now. I can’t blame them. We will have a president that says they should be banned from visiting because of their beliefs.  Because of where they were born. Because of the beliefs they were born into. What do I tell my kids? That part of me is relieved that their last name sounds English? What about their “funny” first names? I don’t know.” —Niki, Maryland

“OK, LISTEN UP. We. Are. Not. Leaving. This is our country. We are going to stay and we are going to fight. We are going to stand with Muslims and black people and Latinos and immigrants and women and LGBTQ people and disabled people and poor people because WE. ARE. NOT. LEAVING. our neighbours behind. I’m furious. And I’m heartbroken. And I am so deeply disappointed in the racism and misogyny that has driven this election. But this is not the time to give up. We are reaching into our common humanity and fighting like hell for what we believe in.” —Amanda, Michigan

“Just so we’re clear, ‘tells it like it is’ means ‘supports white supremacist, patriarchal structures that keep me and other white people like me in power.’ No, I’m not leaving this country. I’m staying here and fighting for queer individuals and people of colour. I will never be quiet again.” —Chrissy, Arizona 

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“My heart aches for our nation today, but more than that, it aches for her. I’m turning 30 next month; for the entirety of my existence, Hillary dedicated her life to the betterment of this country. And so what if she made mistakes? Who hasn’t? How is it that we ignore the most impressive resume from a candidate—just because she has boobs and a vagina? Hillary, from the bottom of my heart: I am sorry the country you’ve given your life to has let you down. We are all crying our tears of sorrow into the same bucket. Know we have your back always, just as you have had ours.” —Tanya, California 

“This is devastating. We lost the House, Senate and White House (and Supreme Court). I feel disassociated from the American people—I don’t know or understand or share the same values apparently as my neighbours. I also don’t know how to do this job—representing the U.S. overseas—when I myself don’t share the beliefs of those elected last night. I am disheartened at how far back we will slide. I am disillusioned with any progress I felt the U.S. made under Obama. I am sad for Hillary and hope someone gave her a sleeping pill to get through last night. I’ve been nauseous and unable to sleep. I don’t understand how someone who is openly racist and misogynistic and has no plan was elected to lead the U.S. These United States do not feel united to me any longer.”—Name Withheld, Washington, D.C. 

“His win will be seen by many as ratification of the reprehensible way he treats minorities and other historically disadvantaged groups. I’m really afraid for these folks. It’s also an embarrassment to our reputation in the foreign arena. And he has literally no experience with governing. It’s so many other things. I’m numb.” —Hannah, Maryland

“Truly, I am devastated. So many setbacks in one evening. But I am not giving up. I will fight for the rights of my friends and the people that truly make this country great, minorities, immigrants, the LGBT community, women. The fight is not over; it is just beginning. Now we must step up and prove who we are, and that is what I intend to do.” —Hillary, Massachusetts 

“Everything at the moment feels very raw and confusing. My brain is clouded with all sorts of thoughts—somewhat slighted in the case Hillary won the popular, but also aware that part of what makes us America is our unique voting system and various balances of power. The problem is that today doesn’t feel like America, and I keep returning to the words ‘spoken’ by our Statue of Liberty, and all I can think is whether we have erased those critical and characterizing words of our nation today, or if, alternatively, this election illuminates something even scarier, that there is in fact such huddled masses that we were all too naive to realize needed to break free, only from within the borders of our own nation. The truth is, I don’t know what to think. But the sun will rise tomorrow and our country is still teaming with beautiful people—these people are why this result is so heartbreaking.” —Megan, California

“I don’t have anything to say. I can’t stop crying. I’m terrified, I’m so sad. I just have no words, just tears.” —Natalie, Washington

“I think it’s the end of the world.” —Name Withheld, California 

“I’m drunk now, surrounded by amazing Aussie friends who have come out to commiserate with me. They’re as stunned as me. Consoled though by how they’re here to look out for me. I’m laughing in the face of a rough few years ahead. Humanity will get through it.” —Cole, Colorado

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